October 7th, 2017
I give up. I'm so disappointed right now. I'm tired of feeling like this. I'm tired of feeling sad, lonely, unimportant and unloved. I deserve to be with someone who puts me before an employee at Lowes. I told you what I wanted to do, and you chose to put Antoine before me. I DON’T feel like driving, I DON’T want to use gas, I WANT to spend an afternoon with my bf celebrating our anniversary. But, we can't even do that because making Antoine happy is more important than making ME happy. You were at Lowes yesterday ON our anniversary. You then were with Michael, ON our anniversary. It's NOT a lot for me to ask to spend a fucking afternoon with you, without you having to go to Lowes, to just be with ME to celebrate our god damn anniversary. It's just not important to you. It's like you want to go eat quick so you can be done and go to Lowes. I have a lump in my throat and I'm sick to my stomach. And I don't care that you said just drive your car yada yada. The point is that I told you I don't want to drive. I TOLD you what I want to do. What I WANT doesn't happen. What I WANT is unimportant. I AM UNIMPORTANT. TO YOU. I am so tired of feeling this way. I am so tired of fighting to spend time with you. Have fun at Lowes.
