June 26th, 2017
A text I sent to a friend.
Sorry, got busy...I feel like I can't do it anymore. He is so mean and I am so tired of asking him not to be. I feel like I'm basically his assistant. There's no spark. I want/need to feel a connection; mentally, emotionally and physically. I want to be with my best friend...someone who wants to travel, be spontaneous and go on adventures. Someone who appreciates the woman that I am, looks at me when I talk and doesn't yell at me all the time or talk to me like I'm garbage. Do you know how badly I want to be with a man who knows how to touch me? How to kiss me until my knees get weak? I want to feel a mans hands in my hair and all over my body. I don't want to be with a man who's idea of passion is smacking my ass as hard as he can or jiggles my tits, or shows me his hard-on as a way to get me in the mood. He's totally neurotic about the stupidest little shit and everything makes him mad. Dude you know how I am! I have anxiety but I'm SO down to earth and chill about most stuff; I feel like I'm living with my mother. Walking on eggshells.
