May 13th, 2019
A text to his brother.
I wish your brother believed in me and said nice things like you do. And like most of the people in my life do. This store has to work. I live in constant fear of him. He is destroying me. I had a panic attack a few days ago, and he ended up yelling at me, so I called my brother for support. My brother told me I’m strong and brave and I’ve been through a lot...he told me he believed in me and there’s nothing I can’t do. I told Doug what my brother said and Doug said he didn’t agree with my brother, and that I’m not strong, and he doesn’t care if I have to flip burgers to pay him back. One day he’s nice, and somewhat understanding, then he’s nasty and degrading and says he never said the things he’s said.** I never know which Doug I will get. I have chest pain and I’m shaky and sick to my stomach and my mouth is dry and my head hurts and I’m exhausted. I really believe that he thinks that our relationship is pretty much fine. I don’t think we have a relationship.
**I was still a newbie to the whole gaslighting thing
