February 28th, 2020
You have no idea what your constant berating me over the same thing over and over and constant disapproval of who I am has done to me. You have no idea how much you have changed me and fucked up my head. I feel like a complete piece of shit about myself, like nothing I do is right or good enough and I didn’t feel that way before I met you. I question everything about myself and my choices because I don’t trust myself anymore. The only thing I am certain of is that I am a good person and I deserve to be with someone who sees that and supports me and loves me and is kind to me. I can’t take anymore abuse, I really can’t. I cannot take anymore. I am so fucking beaten down by you.
